Progress Report (This is not the rant below this is)
Well it's going really well all pages sketched up and that was about a little bit over two weeks ago, I've been meaning to update for a while now but keep forgetting, their are 91 pages in total...so I've got to get busy, the first page and the cover page is done, but the rest I'm line arting before finaling finishing them. I mite later on tonight post up the cover page so you guys get to know what it is but I'm still havent probaly decided on it yet.

The Rant (Read if you want)
This Rant is about the idea of having a realationship with the oppisite gender.

Sigh found out during my second lunch break today why I'm not like other humans.

Well you see a (Kinda Friend) since last week has invited me to come and eat lunch with her and her friends, for now I'll just call her Jam for the moment and well like last week she invited me to join Jam and her friends during the lunch break while I’m at TAFE.

At the beginning of the lunch break, after meeting up with Jam and her friends I ended up alone with her friends because Jam went off to do something not quiet sure what.

So me and Jam’s friends went off to find a place to eat our lunch that’s where my troubles began, we first had very mundane things we talked about (Basically me finding out more about these people because I hardly know them).

Then topic of having Boyfriends came in, you know the only amusing thing I found from this was I was waiting for them to ask me because evey girl since I left England has ask me, it was kinda like having a count down in my head, and just waiting for the seconds to go because their was no way to escape them asking.

I have no boyfriend and I'm happy not to, why many super disagree with me with this dession, the truth is I think its really silly to have a boyfriend when your in highschool, that just my oppion do not kill me for it.

You see to me having a realationship during highschool for me would just be causing problems for myself, and as I have obsevered over the years while being in highschool it has only caused great sorrow for when things go the other way for others. Not just the fact they broke up or they found out their BF has been cheating on them,no its the great curse of the female existance that makes us spread life shredding rumors around, that sends many girls into a deep depression. Foranutely I'm not one of those girls because I'm not part of the social order of the females in my school and I’m quiet happy being an outcast (It has its good times!).

Anyway back to the topic, so they went on about and asking me something I found super strange ("Do you ever like look at a bunch of boys and choose mentally which one you would go out with?" Note: this is not really what the girl said but the basics of what she said. I find his like weird no I have never done that and I really don't want to, and then they go on about the fact guys do it all the time, and how when I walk past a group of males their profiling me!

I feel very distrubed, and my left eyebrow was twitching when they mentioned it, sigh then they had to go onto a topic I wish they hadn't least I was able to block them out while eating an orange, before finally Jam came back, and thankfully I had finished what little lunch I had, and departed from then.

They invited me to join them next week, sigh I don't know if I want to have an encounter with these people again, but I can't be rude to them inviting me to eat with them, I hardly have a social life, and I probably need to be around more humans but still..I like to be alone now, in the past I hated being alone without really any friends, sigh hope they don't go on to that topic again.

Sigh so that when I got more proof why I'm not like other humans, but still having to face the fact I'm still human despite being so different and that this won't be the last time this kind of things happen, and I hope to my readers that I don't seem like a jerk or anything and that this rabble wasn't so stupid, I just find it very diffcurlt when it comes to this kind of topic, and it annoys me when it pops up because I'm not like these people who have realationships, I'm not like these people who watch Soaps, I'm not these people who surrouding me each day, I'm an out cast, an I'm now at a stage in my life when I wouldn't have it any other way, I'm happy where I am and I'm learning to like who I am too, and it helps me to slowly be more positive then who I was who was very sad a negative, and I don't want to be that person, the scars from my past will always be their, but now I'm learning to slowly get over them, and a Boyfriend would just open up old would from lost friendships so please fellow watches don't kill me for what I think, this is just who I am...the end.

PS>
If by somehow any of the girls from that lunchtime meeting read this please don't think I'm being mean, I'm just different and I think differently to your veiws, your who you are and I am who I am I'm just not someone who wants to get involved with anyone, so just drop it, and please don't ask anymore question about stuff like that please!